Hello again.
So, you may have noticed that I've been once again avoiding writing, but I can assure you, things are not what they appear. Well, they sort of are. But let me explain:
The week before the week before my spring break, disaster struck. At least it seemed like a disaster at the time. What happened? My laptop died. Crashed and burned.
The nerd version of what happened: The cable connected to my hard drive which allows data to be transmitted on my computer screen become compromised. My hard drive was still intact and fully functional, but no longer had the means necessary to transmit data so that I could see it.
My reaction when it happened: WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? WHY DOES THIS LITTLE FLASHING FOLDER WITH A QUESTION MARK KEEP FLASHING ON MY SCREEN?! NOOOO!! I'VE LOST EVERYTHING ON MY COMPUTER! I HAVE NO WAY TO DO MY HOMEWORK OR ACCESS MY EBOOKS. I WILL FAIL EXAMS. I WILL HAVE TO DROP OUT OF COLLEGE. I WILL END UP WORKING IN HOMEGOODS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. *ensue hysteria*
Although that was a bit of an exaggeration, I did overreact when I realized I would no longer have my personal MacBook to help me accomplish work and procrastinate with ease. I was able to struggle through on my old Grandaddy MacBook and by using the school's library computers, but still, the whole event made me realize how much I depend on this 12.78 inch by 8.94 inch piece of metal for everyday sanity. It's no secret that we are a technology dependent society, but I've always considered myself to be an exception to this rule. Sure, I can still waste time on Facebook or YouTube, but I thought of myself as someone could survive contentedly without a TV or social media for an extended length of time. However, I was dead wrong. Although the nerd in me feared I would fail my exams without a computer, the procrastinator inside me feared I would have to live without Netflix for weeks on end and made me realize that I am not the societal rebel I would like to think I am.
Anyway, the whole point of this story is to say that the last two Saturdays have been hectic without my computer and that is why I haven't written any posts. Although, again, I am wrong in saying this, since I just as easily could have written this on Grandaddy MacBook or with actual pen and paper (imagine that!). So, apologies. I will write another post tomorrow to almost make up for my time away.
In other news, I've been applying for summer jobs while I'm home on spring break from college. For some reason, I was extremely nervous just to walk into stores and ask for job applications, and it took a lot of courage just for me to do so, but I can now say I've applied to three stores and hopefully will have applied to two more by the end of the day. The whole process was a bit scary to say the least, including the interview I had yesterday, but I was proud of myself for taking that initiation and for putting myself out there. I really do need the money, considering how many concert tickets I've managed to buy in the last few weeks, and I'm the type of person who needs to stay busy and have a job to do. What I'm trying to say is, this whole experience was very "un-me." In other words, it's not something I find natural or easy and yes, I had to force myself to do it. But, now that I have hope of landing more interviews and hopefully a job, I feel content. Even though an opportunity may be outside of your comfort zone, it doesn't mean you shouldn't take it. Hopefully, it will lead to results and no regrets. At least I hope it will for me. So here's to opportunity and taking life by the balls.
Cheers.
